My
body clock does not seem to understand I would like to sleep until 6
am. At 3 am or 3.30 am, my eyelids snap open. I stare up at the ceiling
and know my sleep time is over. Daniel tells me I should just roll over
and try to sleep some more: sleep has always come easily to him.
I clamber out of bed. I pray. I read my Bible. I decide to check my email...which in turn becomes a checking of my blogroll. I'm tossed into other people's lives. Their thoughts, dreams, worries, experiences come alive on the screen in front of me. There will be no chance of sleep with all this activity in my head.
I sit and listen...
silence ringing in my ears
sliced by soft snores
sounds of computer humming
sleep tip toeing further away
I sit and think...
memories from yesterday
mulling over what will be
musing about tomorrow
mentally bidding sleep farewell
And so it is, I'm here at 4 something in the morning rambling senselessly about nothing :)
I clamber out of bed. I pray. I read my Bible. I decide to check my email...which in turn becomes a checking of my blogroll. I'm tossed into other people's lives. Their thoughts, dreams, worries, experiences come alive on the screen in front of me. There will be no chance of sleep with all this activity in my head.
I sit and listen...
silence ringing in my ears
sliced by soft snores
sounds of computer humming
sleep tip toeing further away
I sit and think...
memories from yesterday
mulling over what will be
musing about tomorrow
mentally bidding sleep farewell
And so it is, I'm here at 4 something in the morning rambling senselessly about nothing :)
I too feel the same way Ms.Anjuli..oftentimes I also don't know why I started sleeping around past 1 a.m. and wake up 6 a.m...I have so many thoughts in my head and sometimes it is when negative things sinks in which I am really fighting with now..my mind is so occupied..
ReplyDeleteI also read my bible and inspirational books which I usually share on my site hihihi..and sometimes I just go to our kitchen and enjoy my favorite drink..
But if you want to have a restful sleep what I am doing now is not sleeping after lunch and doing house chores just being busy Ms.Anjuli the whole day and I really go to sleep earlier..
Wishing you a restful sleep Ms.Anjuli ;)
My thoughts are with you. I know you've been through so much. It is wonderful that you are able to share with others & use what you have been through to be a help and support to those around you.
DeleteWhen I can't sleep I just get up and go to the gym...it's the only way I can handle insomnia!
ReplyDeleteI hope you get a really good night's sleep today my friend.
@ Ameena- I think the thought of the gym will make me want to go back to sleep immediately- I'll have to think of that next time I get up so early. :)
DeleteHahhaahaha.....you made me laugh ps. Connie, because that is sooo me :).
Deleteouch! at 4 a.m i would be in la-la-land!
ReplyDeletewonder why you are waking up so 'early' -too many thoughts - yeah maybe - but then it cant keep happening everyday. once in a while is ok i feel
Oh no- it is not a regular occurrence. and as you said- it is okay if it happens every once in awhile.
DeleteAnd here you are.. you have documented your 4 something nothing so beautifully. :) Sometimes it happens to me as well.. if I get up at an odd time like that and if there is some thought in my mind and if I make the mistake of giving some thought to that thought, then that would be the end of my sleep.
ReplyDeleteYou've said it perfectly- '...giving some thought to that thought then that would be the end of my sleep...'-- the key is not to give myself the 'room' to think! ;)
DeleteRead Sujatha's comment and your reply to it. Glad this doesn't happen often.
ReplyDeleteAnd when it happens once, really the mind gets to start to think like never before!
I like those 8 lines :-)
Jenny- thanks!!
DeleteThis is the Blogging Syndrome, Anjuli:)
ReplyDeleteAh yes- the blogging syndrome - Rahul, sorry I haven't been able to make it by lately- but I promise by this week I will catch up on your blog!!!!!
DeleteI like the line 'silence ringing in the ears' !!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kusum!
DeleteThat's a beautiful poem, Anjuli! and that coming at 4am in the morning is fantastic!
ReplyDeleteha ha- oh my- if only you knew the things that go through my head at that time in the morning ;0
Deletehappens to me too. I used to wake up at 4 every morn...And as you say all the otherwise unattended sounds are heard with clarity. :-)
ReplyDeleteAjeyo Rao- am looking forward to catching up on your blog posts.
Deletehappens!!!
ReplyDeletesometimes our body has another clock and our minds a different one!!
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Yes our bodies have their own time clock which they listen to.
DeleteI hope you've caught up with some sleep by now, though you write so beautifully during those early waking hours.
ReplyDeleteI have the opposite problem in that I can sleep too much, which seems a waste of precious time when there are so many things I'd like to do.
Linda- I'll be catching up on blogs this week- sorry for being 'non existent' for awhile.
DeleteSome time this happens. The thought process does not allow you to sleep. The poem was a good one.
ReplyDeleteP.N. Subramanian- am looking forward to catching up on your blog!!!!
DeleteI really like this, the way the prose flows into the poem. You capture that nighttime feel very well, alone yet tossed into other lives... a waking dream almost.
ReplyDeletethank you
DeleteI have this thing. I get up at around 4 in the morning like everyday! I dunno why :P It's annoying when sleep is broken and then falling off to sleep again is difficult!
ReplyDeleteyes- very difficult!! ;)= I look forward to catching up on your blog
DeleteHello! You have an award awaiting on my blog :-)
ReplyDeleteWhere are you :-(
was in Denver- am back- will be catching up on blog reading and writing this week...looking forward to catching up on yours.
DeleteNot senseless at all, happens with me too tho not at 4am;-D
ReplyDeleteNancy- looking forward to catching up on your blog
DeleteHappens to me too sometimes.. specially when I've been idle all day long. But most of the times am such a sound sleeper that I wouldn't get up if a car horn was blaring right next to my ear!
ReplyDelete♥ www.thegirlatfirstavenue.com
What happened? No post for a long time!
ReplyDeleteAs I said earlier- will be catching up on blog reading and writing this week!!!!
DeleteI'm glad to know I'm not the only person who does this. But at 3 or 4 am, I'm up, too!
ReplyDeleteah- great minds and great people- do the same thing ;)
DeleteHello, Anjuli! No posts for long time! Hoping you are sleeping well now :)
ReplyDeletewill be catching up on your blog this week...can't wait!!
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